I know this post is a little bit late from official father's day on 12 of November. But this post is not about joining the competition. This is just an effort from ordinary woman who being a daughter, a soon to be mother, an a soon to be daughter-in-law. 

Dear Abah, 

most of the people say that their mom has a magical words. the condition where the context of their mother's talked last time before becoming a reality. but in my family, my dad's statement is more magical than my mom. i'm not saying my mom is lesser magical in term of saying something in the past and becoming reality in present time. but they have a very different realization.

let me tell you more.

as far as i remember, there 's two kind of situation where i recognized my father's "berkah" in my life :

first, when i took a responsibility at my family's mining company, dad suggest me to work in the company where i am working on now. he said that my skill will improve rapidly in this company. because i learn with the titan. i will involve in vital infrastructure project such as Toll Road Development Project and other prestigious project for establishment Indonesia's New Capital Region. this is importance for our business vision in the future. he want me to cut down my boss-daughter ego and willing to work in other people outside my inner circle. 

at that time i certainly refused his suggestion because i'm already feeling comfortable with the position. i'm enjoying managing the labour and financing the cashflow. my arrogant mind said that i'm enough with the skill-improving-things all this time so this is my turn to implement my talent.

a year later, it really happen.

dad's collague who a head of region in my company now asking dad spesifically to help him looking for a talent to be Project Office Manager. a trusted candidate who are non newbie in this scope of work. he didn't want a freshgraduate whom still idealistic wothout understanding how excactly construction project and its titan working on. he needs someone who willing to moved in Balikpapan at the region office. 

my company where i'm working now is always doing closed recruitment (especially for my region). because this corporate culture is about trusted and recommendation. so, my dad offer me this chance. because he (my dad) highly respecting this collague. their relation is happen over a long time ago and this collague didn't asked for help to random partner.    

i don't know exactly why i am receiving his offer. memories told me that at that time in mining company, i felt that my capabilities is useless. i thought i was thrown off from construction project sector. oh yeah at that point i realized that my passion is about construction project. especially in highway sector.

so I accept the offer. i do the formal selection process and officially selected as prefered candidate. i do the probation process, experienced the sweetness and bitter one, i do witness the ups and down, and planned to resign after all this period of contract.   

again, my father says that it's okay to resign. at least i have been done my best. i learned a lot and already know how to implement my experience in family business. he make sure i know all the consequence about my resignation. and he gives me deliberation time to re-thinking about my decision.

right 3 months before my due date, i'm on a very interesting situation at one of the project. this situation suddenly triggered me and brings me back to my Senior High School dream : studying overseas with scholarships. 

qadarullah the dream brings me to the incredible person such as Mbak Widi who literally already graduate from my targeted school who also continous her PhD at the same place. i'm so blessed Mbak Widi gives me diamond hint about the school which is can't be search on google. it will be the a very significant factor to my essay.

i also met Ibu Nurul, who a very humble to voluntarily be my essay proofreader. she also a PhD candidate but in another school other than my targeted school. she married with kiwi guy and becoming permanent resident in that country.

no matter how far my odyssey. dad, I will always be your little princess.

Hi HERB, Love of My Life. 

thank you very much for being a very best father to our children. To be a good leader in our small family. To be a charismatic yet demochratic husband of your not-so-perfect wife. Thank you for trying to giving us example how to be grit over all of obstacle in front of our journey. To teaching us how to be brave facing our fear. thank you for your patience when our kids in a bad mood.